Tuesday, October 26, 2010

The Colors of Autumn

"There are moments in life when you just need a hug from the person who seemed to make everything right." ~Mama Hen
With the beautiful colors of Autumn all around me I have been feeling a bit blue lately. The positive side of me always pushes on and I try to remain as positive as can be in my blog. However, life is filled with both good and bad so that we all may learn and grow. Right now I am reflecting on a decision I had made years ago that has really trapped me in a particular place and I don't know how to fix it. I know I have written about the roads we take and accepting our choices because they lead us to where we are. It is just that I never realized in my life how one decision that seemed so right at the time could lead me into a lost place where I say, "What a painful mistake!" Little Chick and the strength my Dad empowered me with help me to carry on, but at times the reality absolutely exhausts me. I know it all sounds a bit vague, and that is OK. I just needed to write to express my feelings at this time. Although we all try to remain as positive as can be, there are times our life challenges can really make us feel weak. It is also these times that help us to dig deep and find strength we never knew we had. I just wish I had my Dad around right now. He always brought light to my darkest hour.

20 comments:

  1. When I look back, there are so many moments in my life where I say "if I knew then, what I know now..." It's tough. (((hugs)))

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  2. I know what you mean. People always tell me I'm so positive, and upbeat, so when I have those days where I don't feel like being positive, I feel like I'm letting people down.

    So, go ahead and feel how you want/need to feel. I hope you're feeling better very soon :-)

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  3. Thanks for trusting your "friends" and letting us into your feelings, both happy and sad. I sure hope you feel close to your Dad right now, as he looks down upon you and is helping you through this struggling time :(

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  4. I'm so sorry you are caught in some confusing emotion. Hope you get to feeling back on track soon. (I don't know exactly what's got you down, but it reminds me of when I have to tell myself - Bloom Where You Are Planted. Sometimes that helps me when I'm feeling...stuck.)

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  5. No matter how positive we try to be sometimes it's impossible... and that's quite alright! Decisions are never easy and if you hadn't made the choices you made then you wouldn't be where you are today or who you are. That being said, it's tough not to look back and see how we could do things differently. I'm sure if your dad was here he tell you that he's proud of you for all the decisions you have made!

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  6. it's always good to share how you feel..I've known you (and look up to you) as a determined and optimistic blogger/friend but it's good to acknowledge that we have moments when our spirits are low..whenever i'm in that situation (in my case almost everyday for almost 3 months now), i always find solace in prayer..i don't want to sound holy or what but it helps me to know that God is my only refuge and hiding place whenever i feel down...you can get through that mama hen! you're a well-rounded, rational and conscientious individual who will later on know what steps to take to get you out of that situation..i believe in you! =)

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  7. Perhaps writing this down and airing a little of how you're feeling will help you work through your blues a bit. I hope you're ok though.

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  8. Mama Hen, I love you for your honesty. You are a positive person and even when writing about a struggle you exude a deep strength and hope. I just know whatever decision led you to feel lost, you can find your way again because God is helping you.

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  9. We are on the path that God has chosen for us. Although, you may feel trapped by your situation right now, there is a plan, and one day you'll know what it was. I think we all have moments like this, moments where regret starts to sneak in, moments when we second guess ourselves. It's natural, but in the scheme of it all, things are exactly the way they should be.

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  10. I so feel for you because I sometimes feel that way, too. There are always going to be those moments in our past when we made certain choices that defined our paths and sometimes we'll look back with regret. We're all human. But I really feel like we make decisions in life based on the information we have at that time. It's all we can do. The reasons you had at the time you made the decision made sense to you then. Try not to beat yourself up over it. Sending thoughts of strength your way.(:

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  11. I'm sorry you're in such a funk. Life is full of ups and downs, but you're right that the struggles only make you stronger. This time of year especially brings up sentimental memories that predisposes people to feeling emotional. Give yourself time each day to reflect and take care of your needs.

    Thanks so much for constantly checking up on me while I adjusted to my new schedule. You're always so thoughtful like that.

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  12. Everyone has those blue days, especially when the days start to get short. I'm sending love and prayers your way, that you find peace with the decisions you made, or that you find ways to make new ones today. Thank you for sharing your feelings here - it helps me know I'm not alone in my blue days.

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  13. Stay strong, you will soon overcome your problem! Keep well and have a great day!

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  14. I have you find the strength, stamina, and joy you're seeking!

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  15. It's good to see that you are human! :) Big hugs to you, I'm sorry you are feeling stuck. I hope you are feeling better soon. Thanks for sharing with us! Xo

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  16. I hope that you'll find some peace in whatever you're struggling with. I know that you'll overcome and God will continue to look out for you.

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  17. i understand how you must feel Mama Hen.. i'm feeling blue too and so much wish my dad is around..

    praying for ya...

    Hugs,
    Ruth

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  18. It's that time of year, Autumn, when I feel a bit low on energy. Surround yourself with people you like and talk and walk and shake it all out. It worked sometimes for me. Sometimes, I just have to watch an emotional movie and cry with it... I hope my dad is up there in heaven looking down and guiding me too. Hugs to you.

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  19. Sorry you are going through a tough time right now. Your Dad strength now lives within you. You will make it through this time. Hang in there!

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  20. I am sorry that you were having a blue day, we definitely all have those days. I hope the day got better, TV is right your dads strength lives through you now!

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