"If I could rewind the clock I would most surely return to the time when you were here." ~Mama HenLately I have had days where I wish I could transport myself back to the time when my Dad was here. I miss the comfort and safe feeling I always had when I woke up each day simply knowing that my Dad was just a phone call away. We often take for granted the people who are our "rock" while on this journey. It is almost fourteen years that he has been gone and in some ways time has made "dealing with" his loss more bearable. I guess in some ways I have mastered the art of compartmentalizing the tremendous hole I feel in my heart since he no longer was here to talk to, visit, or simply hug. I see so much of my Dad in Little Chick. His great big smile and incredibly bright personality are only a couple of things she reflects. I only wish he was here to see my beautiful daughter as she grows and continues to brighten the world we live in with her infectious smile. If I could rewind the clock I would love to revisit my Dad in the picture you see. He had visited me when I was living in Puerto Vallarta, Mexico. Although he worried and wanted me home and safe, he always supported my decisions and encouraged me to follow my dreams and passions. My Dad was my strength, guide, role model and inspiration. More than anything his love was like a blanket of comfort and safety. I miss him so and pray that he knows just how much he meant to me.
I love it every time when you write about your dad. The love for your dad is beautiful, and your admiration of him is the same.
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad you had a wonderful daddy and I am sorry for your heart that misses him today.
Hey sweet lady! I know exactly how you feel. Beautiful post. Sometimes I find it hard to put it all in to words but you have done it perfectly. I know your daddy knows how much you loved him and is still here with you. XO
ReplyDeleteI didn't know you lived in Mexico? I knew you had an adventurous spirit! I really empathize with you Mama Hen. My dad has been gone for four years now and lately I've been thinking about him a lot too. Memories of us fishing together or embracing keep on coming back. Still, I know he's watching over me. My husband and I went through a very tough time this summer, and every day I would find a penny (on the road, sidewalk, in a store). I knew this was a sign that my dad was letting me know that everything was going to be all right. I do believe in the expression "Pennies from heaven." I think it's wonderful that Little Chick reminds you of your dad. I think it's a sign that he's still there laughing and smiling right along with you!
ReplyDeleteI hear you and I feel your pain.
ReplyDeleteRunning 26.2 on Sunday for my Dad. I will be relying on him for the determination and dedication to get me through.
Those of us, like you, who had a dad that was the rock of the family and showed us unwavering love, have so much to be thankful for. Unfortunately, many in this world never know that kind of father's love.
ReplyDeleteBlessings on you and Little Chick!
You have a special angle watching over you and little chick!
ReplyDeleteSweet memories, Mama Hen. I'm sure your dad knows how much you miss him and I'm sure he is very proud of you and LC. He will lives on through you and LC. Praying you will find comfort in his memory today, MH.
ReplyDeleteIt touches my heart whenever you write about your Dad. You had such a wonderful past with him and I pray those memories & muscles will follow you the rest of your days. Like Cranberry Morning said, many in this world never know that kind of father's love. Blessings to you my friend.
ReplyDeleteI can only imagine just how much you miss him. I can tell by the way you write about him that he was your rock!
ReplyDeleteJust when you think it gets easier, a flood of emotions and pain come rolling back. I get it! It's so hard but he gave you all the tools to be a beautiful Mom and person and now he gets to watch you all the time. Hope your doing okay...
ReplyDeleteNow something to make you smile, Mama Hen said knock you out :-)
I miss my grandma greatly. It was a great loss when she passed away.
ReplyDeleteYour father was and is still, SO LOVED. He must have been quite the father...one like NO other!!!
ReplyDeletei can't imagine the feeling of loss and the void you must feel. how wonderful to have those memories to pull from though. your dad really sounds like he was an authentically great person :)
ReplyDeleteWhenever you write about your Dad, I cry.
ReplyDeleteHe DOES know how much he meant to you, he is all around.
He is watching over you and is proud of how you are raising Little Chick.
Feel his presence and feel his comfort.
xo, bianca